Help me with my problem...please...?

With all that , that happened to u have the right to let ur feelings out. I think that u should still talk to ur mom n try to reconcile. I ignored my dad for a year for physically abusing me but ur heart has to forgive or else ur Alway going to feel depressed ur in that state where everthing is going to **** but it happens to everyone really I've dealt with almost the same thing but my parents are still married I swear it works out with a change of heart. U just have to be opened to it